Broken

10959978_10152662426551179_8251294705714170298_o (2)A very long time ago, there was a Midwestern lawyer who was in such deep depression that his worried friends thought wisely to remove all knives, razors and dangerous objects from his vicinity. During that time, he wrote the following words in his diary: “I am now the most miserable man living. If what I feel were equally distributed to the whole human family, there would not be one cheerful face on the earth. Whether I shall ever be better I cannot tell; I awfully forebode I shall not. To remain as I am is impossible; I must die or be better, it appears to me.”

Possibly, this Midwestern lawyer might have struggled with depression throughout his life, but that did not stop him from becoming one of the finest president ever known to the United States of America. His name, Abraham Lincoln – a man who was not spared of much sorrow throughout his life… At a young age, Abraham Lincoln lost his mother, and his father moved away leaving him. He had to work hard splitting logs and taking on other manual labour. His hunger for knowledge spurred him to work even harder to excel in his studies, and this led him to become a self-trained lawyer. His relationship with his first partner was cut short after she passed away. Abraham Lincoln personally believed in an all-powerful God, but he apparently never made a clear profession to Christian belief. Nevertheless, after experiencing the tragedy of losing a child, he only found much-needed solace by drawing closer to God. Abraham Lincoln was remarkably fond of children but tragically 3 of his own died at a young age. On the day Abraham Lincoln was assassinated, he reportedly told his wife about his desire to visit the Holy Land.


“Life carries with it more pain than pleasure for many of God’s children. The most bitter tears are those shed inwardly or alone when no one else sees the agony of our spirits.”

C.S. Lewis.


If we take a moment to look to history itself to some of the people that made much impact for God such as the Wesley family, Dr Martin Luther King Jr, Martin Luther: The Great Reformer, William Penn, John Calvin, John Newton, William Cowper, Philip Bliss, Horatio Spafford, George Matheson, Joseph M. Scriven, C.S Lewis and so forth… They all had to endure many trials, but God carried them through until the work on earth was done.

Joni Eareckson Tada once said, “Suffering presses you up against God… Suffering becomes the lemon that God keeps squeezing to reveal the not so pretty stuff of which we are made so that it can be brought to light and confessed.” This is coming from someone who understands physical pain every single day of life since after a diving accident in 1967. Pain is no evil, unless it conquers us. French painter, Pierre-Auguste Renoir was asked why he persisted in painting when the arthritis pain in his hands and shoulder were unbearable, he replied saying, “The pain passes, but the beauty remains.”

Whatever crisis you may face, it will pass. But what remains is the reaction to that crisis. The way you perceive God will have a direct impact on your attitude toward your crisis. How you react in the midst of your storm is one of the most important thing in your Christian work. I read the other day about how different birds react to rainstorms. Apparently, the duck is actually indifferent to rainstorm and totally oblivious to it. The chicken, on the other hand, is a miserable creature in the middle of a storm. But the robin sings, saving its sweetest note to the most raging part of the storm.

So the questions is – are you a duck, chicken or robin?

Martin Luther, the great reformer was known to be prone to discouragement. He apparently became really discouraged and started to fall into the depth of despair when his friends turned on him during a period of time when he was battling both the emperor and the pope. In his despair, he sought the Lord, and eventually found much encouragement in the cool of the evening when he went for a walk and looked up. He later penned down in a letter the following words: “I have looked up in the night sky spangled and structured with stars and found no pillar to hold them up, yet they did not fall…”

The only place to go in the hour of desperation is the throne of Grace. The only solace right in the middle of our storm is God. “The only way to keep a broken vessel full is to keep it always under the tap” – Billy Sunday. When God heals a broken heart, He doesn’t just patch it up, He makes it stronger than it was before. It is only when you and I are broken, that God can put us together again in a far greater way. It is only the crushed rose that gives off its sweetest fragrance. It is only after the pain of childbirth that the joy of motherhood is experienced. It is only the crushing of wheat that makes breads. It is only the grains of sand that wounds the body of the oyster, and yet, out of that irritation comes a beautiful pearl.


“For it was only when the Lord Jesus Christ allowed His body to be broken with thorns and nails and spear that redemption poured forth like crystal stream from which sinners could drink and live eternally.” – Dr. Michael Youssef.


God uses our brokenness, not only to bless us but to bless others, even for generations to come. Brokenness is the only way by which you and I understand better the heart of God. Through brokenness, you and I will comprehend better the nature of sin and phantom the strength of God’s love. God does not effectively use people who have never been broken nor people who have never learnt perseverance. God does not effectively use people who have never learnt to lean on Him and Him alone.

  • Ask Abraham and he would tell you about the sacrifice in Mount Moriah
  • Ask Jacob and he would tell you how he laid his head on a pillar of stone
  • Ask Joseph and he would tell you about the Egyptian dungeon
  • Ask Moses and he would tell you about the wilderness and his dealings with Pharaoh.
  • Ask Jonah and he would tell you about the time he spent in the belly of the whale.
  • Ask David and he would tell you exactly what it is like to be hunted by Saul
  • Ask Job and he would tell you how God can give you a song in the night when you have nothing to sing about.
  • Ask Daniel and he would tell you about the time he spent in the den of lions.
  • Ask Paul and he would tell you about his shipwreck experience, hanging on a spar in the Mediterranean Sea.

There is one thing that you must never do in times of fear, brokenness, depression, uncertainty, and discouragement and that is – to completely isolate yourself by cutting yourself out of Christian fellowship. While we may come to Christ as individuals, we do not remain solitary salvation pilgrims or individual lone ranger Christians. Being a Christian is not an individual journey; it is a group effort lived in community. God provided the great Apostle Paul with a Godly couple to be his friends and companion. Aquila and Priscilla were God’s gift to Paul’s burden of responsibility and formidable task, they were a provision of fellowship, encouragement, and love to his faithful servant, the great apostle Paul.

Nevertheless, the people God raises up still must be willing to endure the suffering of solitude. On the contrary, solitude can help us appreciate people more. In solitude, our heart of stone can be turned into a heart of flesh, rebellious heart into a contrite heart, and a closed heart into a heart that opens itself to all suffering people in a gesture of solidarity. This type of solitude is not a state of loneliness but of aloneness with God alone.


Broken-hearted I come to thee in prayer Father. Heal my wounded, broken spirit. Save me by Thy grace, and grant me Thy peace.